Depressed mind of a killer

Im lost confused mistreated abused lied to punished hated faded gone in the dark gone left no mark in this life i imagine ending with a knife held close to my throat i feel lite as if i can float but in the crowd she stands out i wave to her and try to shout she cant hear me im not noticed these are my words of protest so listen closely dont ignore turn off your lights close your door cause my words will haunt you follow close they will yell and taunt you all the most why do i have a feeling for you when you push me around the way you do ill cry and and put this noose around my neck so these actions will reflect my emotions for you have lost its fate now today is my suicide date.