Only in my dreams; a perfect love

Happiness has descended upon me once again
but am i so disillusioned to think it'll stay
i have loved and lost too many times
to ever truly believe it can be this way
if i can just stop for a moment and remember
that in essence, love is a curse
will i decide to believe in the everlasting
because the other fate is worse
will i take for granted all i have
this single moment of immeasurable bliss
but then again, would it mean so much to me
if inevitably, i know it'll end just like this
will i deny the hurt, all the pain
every emotion i am destined to feel
will i allow this love to make blind
everything I've ever known to be real
will hope gather in my heart
perhaps love will not repeat it's past
or will i end up broken again
this time more painful than the last
will this ever end
this endless cycle of pain that i call love
will i ever again have the courage
when heartache is all that i know of
will there ever come a time
when this heart will know no lies
when tears will have no reason
to ever fill my eyes
when love is nothing short
than everything i thought it'd be
and when I'm filled with doubt
you're there to take it all from me
how crazy all this sounds
and how silly all this seems
because a love like this doesn't exist
i shall find it only in my dreams.