My blade..

The lights are off,
I hear my lullaby
the trees outside
their shades pass by
My freezing room
my dark pale lips
close my eyes
the cracking clips
I'm dreaming now
my nightmare awakes
i start to run
across the high plains
LEAVE ME ALONE
leave me the f**k alone
its my life
you don't decide!
i get to the lakes
where i once fell
Ive been pushed
i drown in so called hell
I wake
my glooming day
for i have my razors
and words to say
my blade has turned brown
the dirt it surrounds
can kill me
ah!! i hate the sound.
that is one of my silly nights
all pale.... and dry
my blood is the only liquid i see
tonight is the night i die.