This isnt what I wanted back

I know its long please read its probably bad but read it.

Another blow to my face and it felt great I got back my killer instinct but something was wrong so wrong but the feeling consumed after every punch to my face I smiled I even laughed my opponent ran everyone was laughing at him but soon they would all see why he was running they had seen what I had become they said Andrew's back but know it wasnt Andrew it was a cursed fighting who went mad in a fight .No one laughed and only looking at my evil grin I had really felt bad to what I had done to my opponent cried and begged for no more I felt horrible this isn't what I wanted back I was stronger all right but this isn't what I wanted.I never knew how out of control it was I was like a murder who only liked to see blood.It was all a dream and realized this isnt what I wanted and hoped this wouldnt happen to me on my quest for that feeling please comment and vote