Wait for that day

I want to die
I sit, i cry
I cut deep, cant sleep, i weep
Cant breath, i need, i Crave
Wont be saved, till the end
believe in only a few friends

Lies, Failure, Deceit, Defeat, Mistreat . .
You don't care, its unfair
I\'m lonely, I'm sad, Unhappy, mad
I hate, i dislike
I'm Ashamed, wish i never tried

I see Death, Feel his Breath,
I see the light, but its to bright
I see Happy things, i fell sick
I see what happiness brings, but never will i feel it

I lay, I dream, He enters, I scream
Happiness i need you here,
open your arms, learn to share
Learn to care, and not to make me fear

i want to be happy just for one day
i want to be happy and hope it stays
hope it never goes away, to feel lonely
to feel shame, to hate to hear his name, then feel pain
life is just one game
sticking a dagger through my heart
i want to hear my self laugh, upset from the start

Feel tormented and abused, looking up cause I'm so f**king confused
Wish i never touched the booze, now I'm bruised, mentally and physically scared, ill wish upon a star
Twinkling beautifully in the midnight sky
One day ill reach high and start to cry

But tears of of love and not hate,
and ill be welcomed through the pearly gates

But for now ill sit, while he takes over my mind, the good in me will leave, the bad will shine

in the end ill grow up! ill achieve, ill dream and learn
and ill wait for my turn, for my life to change its ways
Ill sit and hope and prey for that day

{sorry if its long}