Feeling the pain

It's gone, all of it
the feeling from my legs and arms,
Just gone, just like that
can't feel anything accept my hate,
hate for my self,
hate for everything i ever stood for,
too many over powering emotions,
if only i could lose feeling in my heart,
i wouldn't feel this pain anymore,
running toward my old cutting blade,
help me blade, help me feel numb,
while i cut till my fingers are shaking
I'm bleeding a river of red tears of emotions!
I'm running out of time*

*not one of my best, but its how I'm feeling, *Cut* true story*