Thoughts

Its hard to let go of feelings buried deep
slowly and steadily i start to slit
impassioned hate for a world that never loved
wanting to be taken to the heavens above
someday i wanna find inner peace and be at one
reach nirvana and be able to find strength from the sun
i wanna let my heart free and taste love
i wanna be a symbol of peace like a dove
sometimes i feel shameful for my tears
people in Sudan live in daily fear
scared they wont survive
scared bombs will drop from the sky
i cry because life gets a bit hard
and sometimes i fall apart and become a retard
at night i wonder about life and my dreams
i think about all the hatred and anger i've seen
how the worlds revolved around money and things
how theres never been a black king
my thoughts wonder like a stray dog
trying to find home searching through the fog
I'll keep wondering till i find bliss
i hope that someone can understand my feelings in this