Who am I?

Who am I, for I no longer know
What do I do, where shall I go

When will my life no longer be run by pain
When will I smile and laugh once again

How can I stay when I so want to live
I no longer feel the need to live or breathe

Where can I go if not ending my life
What can I do, but cut with my knife

Who can I love, who will love me too
I love nobody in this world but you

How can I live when I feel so so dead
frightened and crying every night in my bed

Why should I stay, when I just want to go
Who am I? because honestly I don't know......