Feelings

Everything is clear in black and white
Colours fading into the night
Turning away, and bowing my head
Sleepless nights spent in my bed

Curled up defending my mind so easy to break into
Just like you somehow managed to
Tears a constant prayer slide down my cheek
On the outside loud and brash on the inside so weak

I can no longer let you in
I fear your life I will ruin
So I am going now just to pretend
That I will be happy and my depression will end

I can't drag you down in here with me
So no longer you will see
These tears of blood run down my arms
From the cold knife, causing me harm

On my own I must stand, and that is the way it will be
Falling quickly and constantly
Lonliness eating me up and tearing me apart
Getting inside my torn up heart

Laugh at me and point and yell
Drag me back down into my living hell
Where I reside inside my brain
My eyes turn cold and angry from the pain falling like rain

Scratch at my face to tear out my thoughts
Happiness cannot be bought
Moving away from any recovery
Waiting for the final discovery