Broken down

I am broken down, No longer standing
I cannot keep living like this
With my cutting and suicidal thoughts
The happiness that I so miss

Trying to be strong, but coming up against a wall
I ask myself why
Why am I unable to cope, with all my pain piling on top of me
Why do I just want to die

Deeper and deeper the cuts do run
I see them there all over me
Who I have become
A strange definition of anomaly

Speechless, not wanting to talk
Rehearsing my lines in my destroyed mind
Not knowing what to say and when to say it
Feeling like I have been left behind

Hiding away, not wanting to except
The truth, following me like a shadow on my tail
I try to run from it
But again I fail

Laughter like an insult, offensive to my ears
Why is everyone so happy, How, I wonder, How
Feeling so lost, so far away from where I should be
But I don't know where to go now

Pulling away from those people who I love
Breaking all of my ties, snapping all my ropes
Searching everywhere that I know
For a small, tiny ray of hope...