Why am i saying this

What am i saying.
why am i here
i don't know why
but I'm lying in fear

the fear that i might
never kiss her again
my mind keeps on lying
even tho i know its a sin

i miss her so badly
that i cant even say
but now for some reason
i am pushing her away

no no no. thats not what i want to do
its not my hearts desire
and what i say isn't true

so why am i saying this
when it isn't real
i keep saying i like them
when thats not how i feel

Satan is winning
he planned this from the start
he wanted to hurt me
so he broke my fragile heart

how does he do it
and i want to know why
he speaks lies through my mouth
and he makes me cry

i cant fix this mess
that he has got me in
cuz now nobody trusts me
because they know of my sin

those weren't my true feelings
that he told everyone
but now all i can do
is get up and run

now its all over
and things will never be the same
because all these lies
have just left me to blame

there wasn't much of i price tho
besides all the lost friends
and all the hurt i caused
and me never having a her again

I'M SORRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!