It Gleams

I've done so much
and walk so far
I tried everything,
I even passed the bar
But it don't seem like
it matters anymore
cause I wake up every morning
hearing death knock on my door
I walk away,
turn and close my eyes
I thought i did the right thing,
but it was all full of lies
I went the wrong way,
ever since you died
I stole, I fought,
hurt and lied
now its come back to me,
and hurts inside
knowing that you're gone,
I sometimes start to cry
I wish for the chance,
to make it all good
just to say goodbye,
like I know that i should
But I cant let go,
of my memory of you
cause without that inside,
my world becomes blue
the emptiness I feel,
everyday I wake
Is soon reaching the point,
where its more than I can take
I still fear the day,
when I have to let go
When I have to give goodbye,
to the one person that I know
was always there for me,
despite my foolish ways
who always stood by my side,
each and every day
I still shed a tear,
when I hear ya name
even good or bad,
its still all the same
I look deep inside
and begin to write this rhyme
and realize how much I miss you,
and wish I could turn back time
But in the end,
I see its all there
I cant have you now,
and its way to much to bare
I'm dieing inside,
my heart became a flame
that ignites every single time,
that I hear your name
I need to move on,
which I cant seem to do
cause I wanna move on,
but I want it to be with you
But now I see,
that you're one thing that I cant hold
But thats okay,
cause I still feel you in my soul
deep within my heart,
and inside dreams
I'll move on now,
but the memory will and always gleams.