My love

This feeling
it fills the room i am standing in
like a thick haze
i choke and rock back and forth
i close my eyes
feeling everything around me
feeling you move right through me
like a ghost, haunting me
you're all i think about
all i care about
everything i do
you judge me first
you live in my mind
you're lips moving poison
do i love you?
i answer it myself
then fall to the floor
i breathe deeply
calming myself and my heart
but it does not help
i want you
need you
can't tell you
because you won't understand
won't care
doesn't matter what i do
you'll never see me
I'm think that i am just...
vapor
yes vapor
I'm only vapor to you
someone that is just there
not worth you're time
I'll disagree with you
i am worth everyone's time
just get to know me first
before you push me away
without looking inside
give me one chance
I'll make you never want to leave
my love will bind you
have you hooked
wispy warm fingers will surround you
there is no turning back
step back from the ledge
give me just one more chance
just one more
i know I've had lots
I've been stupid
but now I'm ready
but now you're gone
i sigh and leave this world
still laying on the cold floor
i had fallen on so many times before
this time it had taken me