Dirt so vile

You look through me daily
pretend to care of how i feel
endlessly lie to everyone around
that words leaving your lips are real

you may not even notice
how deep your words can scar
oblivious to your actions
why do you push me away so far?

and there is just no need
but your ever growing greed
to stab me in the back
until I'm blue and black
to kick me while I'm down
or to ignore my painful frown

as you sneer and mock
then ask me what is wrong
don't you realise at all
that i need someone to lean on
that you secretly giggling
only makes this frown grow long
i need security back
to once again be strong

it seems this anger can grow and grow
if you looked you'd see it in my eyes
but you cant see, you'll never know
of any trace of bitter hidden despise

look at my face
slowly falling from grace
look at my hand
the one wanting you to understand
look at my side
the one i still hide
then look into my past
where i wish to be
the summers full of happiness
seemed to fade too quickly

peering over the edge
yet another tear is shed
gripping whats left in reach
the drop becomes too steep
grasping the last thread of hope
trying not to sulk or mope
all the while that feeling remains
the one i can never seem to change

so as you tread on my grasping fingers
or stop any attempting smiles
don't ask me what is wrong
rubbing my face in dirt so vile