I heard that angels live in heaven,
the kind of miracles who get you through the day when life feels like an eternity of pain.
They bring back the memories of when smiling was not a chore,
they remind you of how beautiful it makes you feel.
These magical creatures are so rare and fine, and so hard to find.
I used to think it was a myth,
a magical story retold by generations to generations,
of a world full of happiness and hope.
This fairytale I so wanted to belong to, so wanted to be apart of.
But how could I fit in when my heart was filled with woe?
How would I bring myself out of this dark place, which I called home,this place where I felt lost and confused, like drowning deeper and deeper into a black hole?
Nothing could act as my Saviour,
I prayed for the light to shine,
I prayed for the beacon of hope,
but the light was dimming...
My heart was breaking into a thousand pieces with no one to catch them when they fell,
my heart was failing,
refusing to carry on.
Why mend a broken heart when it is just to be broken once again?
Why live in hope of what may be? What might have been?
I made my dreams reality
the thought of being awoken from years of dreaming frightened me.
But the miracles I had been waiting for, for so long, had always been apart of me,
like a silent secret just waiting to be told.
They appeared in my heart,
the elegance in which they came and reached for my hand was beauty.
Their touch of honesty, love and protection ran through my body,
waking up my senses and bringing me to life.
They mended my heart,
the pieces which I thought had been lost forever were put gently back into place.
The thought of telling my heart to move on frightened me,
the thought of forgetting was daunting.
Where would I find the courage to move on?
How would I walk the lonely path without falling apart?
They say that time is the best healer...but is it really?
How do you move on and forget the one person who showed you what love is?
How do you forget that one person who made your heart beat with just the sound of his voice?
Your feelings are so mixed up because as well as feeling hatred and anger inside of you, you also carry love for him,
love which keeps you alive,
but love is not enough to replace how much he has hurt you.
How do you let go of the love which keeps you hanging on?
The love which makes you forgive him even if he’s made a thousand mistakes?
He won’t let you forget him
he won’t let you sleep at night
he won’t get out of your mind
you see him everywhere you go.
At night you look up at the moon and think if he his looking at the same one, thinking of you?
Your heart wants him back but your mind is saying no,
your heart wants him to hold you,
no matter how tough life gets,
when his arms surround you they lift you up from all your woes and sorrows, but your mind is saying no.
I dare not look to the future, afraid of what I might see
Im stuck in the memories of who my heart still loves...
I love him for not only who he is but how he makes me feel...x
...Hey...this is my second poem...id be real grateful if u cud comment and rate it...thank you..!...x
