Today...

Once again today I found myself there in the cubicle
Sitting there, blood dripping from my legs and ripped arms
Dissapointment with myself and my ability floods through me
Why do I long to cause myself this harm

Pain shoots through me as someone brushes past
Wincing with pain as they touch the raw skin
Agony flooding through my veins
For some sort of normality I am longing

Seeing those cuts on your arms made me see
What I am doing to myself and you
Please promise me that careful you will be
I do not know what else I can do

Today I was laughed at once again
As I felt the throbbing on my arms I felt a sick satisfaction
I love this pain, I love it so much
As they taunt I offer them no reaction

For I know I have my true friend there hidden in my bag
Where my feelings spill out of my veins
And I can be the true person I have become
Filled with demons haunting feelings and pain...