Answer This

I lay alone at night
unable to sleep
i cannot let my feelings out
so all i do is weep

the tear stains on my pillow
will never fade away
I'm sick of lying to the world
and pretending I'm okay

behind my painted smile
there are scars that will never heal
i cant break down the wall Ive built
so my feelings i conceal

as i gaze into the mirror
and look through my tear stained eyes
i see a lonely broken heart
that forever slowly dies

the more i think about it
the harder i clench the knife
my head is spinning endlessly
i want a better life

there are to many decisions
and choices to be made
i need to let my feelings out
but of that i am afraid

as i think about the past
and the memories that we shared
i cannot help but wonder
if you ever truly cared

lately i cant look at you
without thinking i will cry
i always tend to ask myself
the painful question why

its like no ones really listening
like no one understands
no one has a shoulder i can cry on
or any helping hands

I'm overcome with loneliness
and i cannot get away
i cant escape the way i feel
so to the lord i pray

as i fall upon my knees
and i look up to the sky
i clench my hands together
and i ask the question why

whys there so much pain in my
why so many fears
everything is building up
and I'm running out of tears

I'm praying for an answer
i don't want another lie
so please dear God just answer this
but try not to make my cry