No more this and that...>.

I guess i have made the most and worst mistakes Ive done in life.
i can feel the anger... the hate to-wards me from close people.
the close spare of time i have ran down to a few minutes.
my sht.. is my sht... and i hate it when people go through my sh*t.
its not like youve done nothing wrong too.. because you know you have.
Im tired of being a little girl that everybody things shes stupid...
Im tired of being the buzzing around bee.
Im starting to notice more... there are no more lies and sht happening behind my eyes..
hopefully your good at lying... because i wont believe anything anymore.
if you come up to me and tell me.. youve done this cr*p to me... oh fking well
check the list of how many crp youve done to me...
no more forgiveness... only when i feel like it.
no more tears i will drop... no more 42 muscles will i waste on moving my smile and my face expression into madness... i will stare and stare... until it all goes away.
i wont give a sht anymore.... just like you never did...
if you tell this things to it.... Im used to it.. you always tell all of this to it.
it has now planned something... i can see it in its eyes, and act.
what the fck does it mean by trust.. theres no fking trust in this world...
it wont make me believe what its telling me... ill pretend too... you arent pulling some more shit inside... leave me alone.. whats in the past in the past.. you know that.. things happen for some shty reason.................
IM fcking tired of everything... Im tired... i hope you understand.. because it at school... is trying to do its little plan, but.. ill tell you know.. their little plan (if they have an itsy bitsy plan) isnt working well... better check on it.. before it fails.