Starting over

You think that i hate you
because of what i said
lying to u
cause i didn't want it to start again
my mind yet not healed
yet you tried so hard
you helped me start the process
but you never finished it

you get mad at me because you thought it worked
i didn't want u to thing i failed
after i told u
u would take it the wrong way
I've done it before
thats why i started this thing
cause i failed what i did fires
telling you i wasn't yet myself
i could never do
i know i wished i had told u myself
like i did the week before
but this was much worse
it could hurt a lot more
but i didn't realize till today
how much stress and hurt and time and pain i took from you
I'm sorry what I've don't to u
and to everyone else
but its a healing process

I'm sorry that i hurt you
I'm sorry i made u cry
but u need to know
I'm ready to start over
before i found a knife
to start a new chapter
a whole new life