What do I do?

What do I do?
I can not talk about this subject with anyone.
It sucks because I have decided.
But I am scared I have make the wrong decision.
What do I do?

What do I do?
If I choose the wrong guy.
What will happen is I will regret it all my life.
Dam me having feelings for him.
What do I do?

What do I do?
I am ready to be with someone.
I want it to be him but I am scared.
I am also scarred for life.Dam it.
I thought I was over that crap
What do I do?

What do I do?
When it seems my world is turned upside down
and the person I normally turn too is one of my problems.
I am not even that pretty compared to some people.
I am sorta pretty in a way but why me? Dam it.
There is something important involved in all this s*@t
or I would try all three guys.
Oh God
Wot do I do?

Wot do I do?
When I talk like a s@*t/sk#@k and
want what the guys are offering.
But
I will not take it because 1 guy is my ex,
1 is a good mate, and the other
should not be so obsess with it. lol.
I have decided what I am doing to do I think but I am still scared and will always be scarred.