Envy

by Just Sierra   Mar 22, 2005


My eyes don’t see anything but her
And how I envy her so
I envy everything about her
And hope you never let her go

You left me behind
For that one amazing girl
So hold her tight and treat her right
Because you’ve already broken my world

Unexplainable tears of question
What does she have that I don’t?
I hope you find you’re happy now
Because I know I won’t

Love is too blind, too fickle
Yet I fall too fast
But something like love, built too quickly
Will never really last

But you’re building it with her
I can see it in your eyes
There’s trust and honesty
Love beginning to arise

I keep peering in with tearing eyes
Remembering how I was used
Tossed around, thrown about
Emotionally broken and bruised

Yet I hold onto the bushes
And cling firmly to the ground
I see you wrap your hands around waist
Horror without a sound

Your eyes finally catch me
A cruel smile plays on your lips
As slowly you walk closer to me
Clenching lovingly to her hips

That used to be my waist
That used to be my man
You stood two feet from me
Holding out your hand

I probably should have pushed you back
I should have ran
But I don’t think I could
I still don’t think I can

Your reason was unclear to me
It still is to this day
I’ll never know why you looked so friendly
Extending your hand that way

But somehow I did it
I grasped it tight
I longed to make her go away
I longed to make things right

My thoughts were shuffling
I felt the return of the heartache
But I stifled a tear with a smile
Though my heart did break

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  • 19 years ago

    by eternal rest

    i love it... very... i dont know the words. The whole part with the hand, and thinking you shouldnt have taken it, and just walked away.... yeah, i know that feeling all too well....

    Kelly

  • 19 years ago

    by The Flame Within

    DEEP MOVES. lol. great job. you are a freakin awsome person thats the way to do it girl. BRAVO. keep up the awsome work. and trust me i know strenght and to say what you put up there and mean it is a whole lot of buffness haha. keep it up. Much Luv

    Nick

  • 19 years ago

    by Just Sierra

    Thanks Nick. I do think this poem is pretty powerful, and I know I can relate to this. Lol-trust me, it is directed to someone else. I'm not trying to make you feel bad if you think this is about you, its actually a combination of the hurt I've felt from everybody all at once. A lot of people can relate to these kinds of poems, or so I think....But thanks Nick!! :-D!! I'm hanging in there!!

    And good news!! I've given up cutting!! Completely. No turning back, not because of a promise, but because of my own free will. I'll hold myself to that because my heart won't break if I just hold onto myself. But I'm definetly hanging tough.

    Though i wouldn't go so far as to say I'm strong...lol.

    Much love

    ~Sierra

  • 19 years ago

    by The Flame Within

    man the truth in this poem has just hit me. i hope this is directed to sum1 else becuase if its not then wow im really feelin not to good then. im sorry it took me so long to realize how freakin powerful this poem is. man i hope you hang tough. be strong lil soldier be strong plz. Much Luv.

    Nick

  • 19 years ago

    by The Flame Within

    hey sorry i havent been here for a couple of days. i had to go to that womens house. aahh. it really sucked. sorry i didnt give you a heads up. she doesnt have net there so i couldnt get online. this is a good poem i think. and i want you to know no matter what you are special to me aite. you are one of my best friends. great work here. Much Luv

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