She doesn't know what's happening
she doesn't understand.
she wants to know why daddy
is hitting her hard with his hand
"DADDY PLEASE STOP I'M SORRY
WHAT EVER I DID I'M SO VERY SORRY"
he hits and he kicks and makes like she's a toy
just some fun
or something to do
she breathes real heavy
she can't help but weep
wouldn't you
if you were scared of what's next
"daddy has finished being mean for today
just mummy left, than I'm on my way"
her mum comes walking up,
hatred in her eyes
not a heart at all
she hits her with the wooden spoon
she belts around her head
she throws her little daughter round
until she thought she was dead
"Mummy, please i love you, i know I'm not dying but i must say
your mean to me, you and daddy, you are, but i forgive you every day and hope you forgive me too"
her mum looks at her with those same evil eyes and beats her one more time, the little girl is lying their
lying unconscious on the living room floor, her parents just abandon her
they walk away for good
they take their good possessions,
and whatever else they could
as this little girl came too
she knew something was missing
she wasn't sad that her parents weren't there
but that she was all alone
the kids at school showed her no mercy
they laughed and teased and abused
poor little girl, finding each step harder to climb, as time goes on and years go by she understands what happened back than
every time she thinks about it
she cannot help but cry
she climbed the steps she once fell down but when she got to the top
there was nothing left
she hung herself from the big wattle tree
the branch above the river
"good bye mum and dad, i know this is hard for you, and it was for me too but please forgive my mistakes in the past, i didn't mean to be rude, i deserved all that beating and kicking and fighting, the screaming and yelling and insults, I'm sorry but i have to go, maybe I will see you soon"
her self esteem demolished and her fears are her real life,
she hides behind her darkest past, and she doesn't even want to know what the future holds!!!
she never understood, why hitting was that bad
she hated herself for being teased
the braces, the bruises, the scars and the wheel chair
