Inside of me

Twisted anger and burning fury
Coursing through me and taking my life away
Sadness an oracle which leads my way in life
Controlling my footsteps as I begin to walk away

Turning things over and over in my mind
Where all my thoughts inhabit every command made
Turning me away from the right path set out there
Oh god how I wish at home I had stayed

My knife calling to me and as I try to resist
It drags me away into that awful place
Where those vivid visions of cutting become so clear
Where I hang my head, trying not to look, feel disgraced

I wander along, the emptiness filling me up
A whirlpool to hard to hold down in my mind
Although I try to hold it in, my thoughts come out
In my cuts that is where, my true feelings you can find

Using myself, draining through my blood like water
A tap in my arms and my legs, releasing a flow of red
A pain so deep inside me soul, haunting me
Controlling the tendencies to feel so dead