Sick

I will not forgive
Though i refuse to quit
Even as I continue to hate
I try not to give in when my memories hit

I have a hurtful past
Most of my friends have worse
So i find it hard to complain
But all this stress is like a curse

I'm always sick
I have headaches and heart pains
I'm not going to let it stop me though
Even if all my words strain

They don't always come out
The way I want them too
It works most the time
But they all left my head to soon

Everything I think of
It all makes me more scared
I'm now scarred for a lifetime
Remembering everyone who lied to me when they told me they cared