This couldn't be

I once had a dream,
That I knew couldn't be true.
The doctor shouted OD,
And said my life was through.

I know that couldn't be me,
I had never done drugs in my life.
I was never a depressed kid,
Suicide never crossed my mind.

But looking at the motionless body,
The girl looked as me.
I saw my parents crying,
It was impossible to believe.

I screamed,and I shouted.
Tears came to my eyes,
But no-one ever looked over,
It took me as surprise.

I looked over to my friends,
Who were all crying in pain.
They started to read a letter,
In ink,it said their names.

The letter said I was sorry,
I couldn't take it anymore.
I was tired of living the lies,
My heart was painfully sore.

I told them I didn't want them to hurt,
Just forget everything today.
I told them I'd love them forever,
Don't go back to memory lane.

And the last few lines read as this,
Don't ever do what I've done.
Life's worth much more than this,
I'm getting weaker,The pains begun.

And in scribble on the bottom,
They finally got it out.
I meant everything in this note,
Don't ever have a doubt.

Please know that I love you,
And I never wanted it this way.
Too many things went wrong...
And I just couldn't take the blame.