I was paralyzed
the life was sucked out of my body
the shock of what i found out
leaves a stinging feeling
a throbbing in my brain
i force a smile
and taste the falling tears
slide into my mouth
and i remember again
how betrayed i felt
how stupid and crazy i was
i actually believed in this fantasy
that my wicked mind
with my selfish heart
decided to conjure
i thought that we had something
a little bit more than what we already had
and i was so sure of it
i was sure that it would blossom
i planned on what to do when you and i became "us"
but that isn't going to happen
because you are my friend
and as my friend you tell me all the things
that you feel
the feel you have toward someone else
not me
never me
and i frown and keep still
i feel my heart fall
my hand which you are holding
turns clammy
i force back the tears as i ask
"so you like her?"
with a fake smile on my face
and you
with torment to me
hold my hand, grasp it tight
whisper in my ear
"Camille, i love her"
