Deep inside

Deep inside is my hiding place,
Where I hide from all the truth and the lies
In a metal box bound with chains and locked up
Lies the truth that you can see in my eyes

Where I recline from the world to my own special land
And everything's in black and white
I sit down at a type writer alone but not lonely
My poems come out of my heart as I write

Inside where I linger, not willing to rejoin reality
As I wait for a pull back to natural life
I dream of this world becoming real one day
Where I can live and forget all my strife

But a slap in face sends me flying back to my mind
As I regain all my feelings with a jolt
Realisation seeps through me as I see where I am
I understand it's all been my fault

In a hospital bed, with these tubes sticking out
Of my body, they are making me breathe
As I lay there, the surprise soon becomes anger
In which I lay down and I seethe

Bandages wrapped along each of my wrists
Bloodstained I suddenly see what I have done
Shocked and sad that my escape didn't work
Life against death and life won