Why did this happen to me?

Why did this happen to me?

Why did this happen to me?
What could I have done?
I want to escape
Get away from here, run

I did not ask to be raped
I did not want to do it
I begged you not too
I kicked and bit

Trembling I walked to a friend’s
I must have been a sight
I don’t remember anything else
I can’t think of that night

Every time I close my eyes
I think of his face
That I remember clearly
His name was Mace

It doesn’t matter that he was never found
I’m going to leave anyway
Nights are long
And I can not think of the days

If I slit my wrists
I could leave this place
Find heaven and angels
And be among grace

I will do it
It won’t be that bad
I know that this world
Couldn’t be that sad

What’s one life?
Mines not that great
The world is stupid anyway
It’s just full of hate

So I’ll be up there
Look to the sky
Among the angels
Is where I will fly

I still don’t know
Why this happened to me
And it doesn’t matter
Because and angel’s what I'll be