Im Tired

I\'m tired of you putting me down,
when people are around,
making a fool out of me,
as if I was a clown,
as I stand there with my head down,
in front of all the town,
I\'m tired of being your target of hatred,
i feel myself fading,
little by little I am disappearing,
no longer existing,
I\'m tired of you saying,
everything is my fault,
your words stay locked up in my mind‘s vault,
they stay stored in there,
hoping to be released with a prayer,
im tired of you tearing apart who I am,
you make me feel ashamed,
you don’t even call me by my name,
that is how u break me with your mind games,
im tired of waking up each morning not wanting to be alive,
ive been holding on, trying to survive,
but the stool can no longer hold my weight,
the legs have been worn out with hate,
with it breaking, it opened up a gate,
to my fate,
as I dangle from the rope,
with my neck through the slope,
washing away my fears like soap,
i no longer have to live off of hopes.