That\'s all i got

This is how i start my life
All happy at first
just to see that there is no happiness at all

when i was smaller
i smiled so much
i never had any idea id be hurt this much

now that my great grandpa is dead
and my great uncle is dying
i think death is my only option

i don't know if i should die or live
because everything is working against me
i just wish i could be smaller now

when i was smaller
i never had to worry
i'd just play
and never think of what was happening

now that i'm older
i see that i cant be happy
i just wanna go
and never come back

too bad thats not an option
because then i would've chosen it a long time a go
and i would never have to worry
about all the truth untold

i wanna get by my tears
get by the lies
but how can i
when thats all ive got