You didn't hear my cry(just another suicide)

Crying all alone
About everything she hides
What no one else knows
Because they're locked up inside

She keeps a smile on
That she lets people see
Fake feelings she gives out
Making them think she's happy

She figures it's more easy
To pretend its not there
But it's not like if she opened up
Anyone would really care

So she hides it all the time
Until the middle of the night
When she's sure everyone's a sleep
She turns on her bedroom light

She slowly creeps out of bed
And reaches for her knife
To release all her worries
And all the hidden strife

She was sick of her double life
She was sick of life in all
She was tired of living on
Now she just wanted to fall

Fall so hard and not get up
Fall right in to the end
Without goodbyes to give around
To family or friends

As thoughts ran in her mind
The blade was cutting through
Her soft delicate skin
This was all she could do

The pain was helping her
Drowning out the memories
The oozing blood fell to the ground
Her eyes turning blurry

She cut more and more
Across her wrist lines of red
She cut faster and deeper
More and more she bled

She realized what was happening
So she ran to get something
She came back with a folded note
Happy about what life was about to bring

More of what it was going to end
She was ending her life of misery
To her a big release
Of pain no one could ever see

She cut more and more
Her arm was now full of lines
Her artistic way of doing with
Instead of complaints and whines

She felt dizzy now
Unaware of all the falling blood
She suddenly fell back
Surrounded by a memory filled flood

She was still holding onto the knife
But she tightly held the note
Her fingers carefully wrapped around
The last things she ever wrote

"I cry when you can't see
When you can't hear, I scream
I cut to release my pain
Every second wishing it were just a bad dream

I lived a secret life
And kept so much inside
I lie about everything
The truth I always hide

You don't know how i was
You didn't really know me
What my hopes and dreams were
About what I could be

I was tired of everything
Tired of my broken heart
I gave all i could
And he tore ME apart

I was tired of people talking
About what they didn't know
Thinking I was living perfectly
Just by what I show

I was sick of these stupid people
Looks can be deceiving
Why would you believe me
And my fake smiling?

I couldn't take the pain
Why did it happen to me?
Did I do something wrong?
Because I still can't see

These words I've wanted to shout
I give the world my last good-bye
At least you'll hear me now
Because you didn't hear my cry..."

~Please rate and comment, I know its a dumb poem...it's not one of my best...but I'd really appreciate it~

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