Living to Die

Why should I go on
When I'm not going anywhere
But why should I stay here
When no ones ever there

I just don't see a point
To fighting the pain
I just want to let it in
And slit another vein

The blood that spills in my mind
Will soon take over me
So why should I delay it
When it won't let me be

I can't go back
To the way I was before
I don't want to either
I just want to die on the floor

So I'll pick up my knife
Feel the cold metal against my skin
It feels so good
To let my dying begin

The poison in my thoughts
Is slowly killing me
I always wanted a fast death
So I'll set myself free

I always knew it would come to this
Because for so long I've been living a lie
But if all this time its been fake
Then really I've been living to die

* I know thats so bad but please comment anyways*