A glimpse outside my window

A glimpse outside my window
takes me away for just a moment
from issues in my private Soul
and black waves of torment

on the other side of my window
the darkness closes me in
reminding me of all the sorrows
that i hold within

As i glimpse outside my window
the sun catches my eye
sending rays of light into the room
as if to ask me why

Why do i sit here
day after day
enclosed in all this darkness
wishing to get away

Why do i listen
as my parents scream and shout
why do i let my mind wander
as it begins to fill with doubt

Doubt of my existence
and why I'm on this earth
did i really have a purpose
am i of any worth

These questions i begin to ponder
as the light catches me eye again
shinning light on something
i try to see, my eyes begin to strain

As i leave my dreaded window
with the light still shinning in
i walk to the spot
that the light shines within

Its a picture of my family
and the people that i love
things that i treasure most
about my life thereof

i smile as i sort though
all of these lost memories
the lights is becoming brighter
and my heart can now see

I see what I've become
this is not what i want to be
Why did i let this happen?
what did i do to me

I've blocked myself off
my everyone i love
not only in this world
but the one above

i became so lost in myself
that my eyes were blind, i couldn't see
all the treasured that i have
and the blessings givin to me

I could not see it then
but clearly i see it now
as i pounder all these things
i can only wounder how

How did i do it,
live so selfishly
how could my eyes not see
the blessings given to me

At that very moment
i got down on bended knee
with the light still shinning though
i gave thanks to thee

Thank you God for everything
that you've blessed me with
thank you for your son
who was the ultimate gift

Thank you for opening my eyes
and allowing me to see
the things that i treasure most
and the people that love me

thank you for the life
that you allowed me to live
thank you for these blessings
that you so willing give"

With tears streaming down my face
i look around my room
the light has filled the emptiness
its no longer filled with gloom

a glimpse outside my window
takes me away for just a moment
reminding me that theres now
no more black waves of torment.