This young girl

Sometimes I feel so depressed
I look in the mirror
and sometimes I see a happy young girl
just beginning her life
other times I look at that same face and body and I think to myself
"how did I ever become so unlucky"
and I actually think about letting this young life go
When I feel the way I do sometimes
I feel like I have no way to turn
no where to go
what should i do?
I panick and I do the exact opposite of what I know is right.
and after I finish whatever it is
I feel guilty
like I have sinned
I think about other girls my age
and I wonder if they go through this same pain
I know my life isn't terrible but sometimes I just cant help but feel
like I should put an end to this young girls life and spare herself
and those around her.