My Saving Grace

People say life is a chance
And they say love is a chance
Well I've loved and I've lost
And I got back on my feet, my soul isn't lost

I loved once and had my heart broken
I loved again and now his heart is broken
But every time I told him I loved him I meant it
But when we are together nothing seems to fit

He confuses me
He blows my mind
He cares about me
Hes one of a kind

He loves me, I know he does
I have know idea why, its simply because
I love him too beyond all doubt
Just not the way he wants me too, I'm not his way out

I hate myself for doing this
He changed my life with just one kiss
But i couldn't commit
I can't be held down
I needed to fly
I didn't want to drown
Drown in love, emotion, and more
I need to be free, to walk out the door

I wish i could explain
Why i put him through all this pain
He was my lover,
My best friend, and brother

He cared about me like no one else had
He saw the good in me, he saw through the bad
But i loved him too much
I had to be me, I didn't want to a crutch
I couldn't share my love, my pain
I couldn't share my loss or my gain
I believed i was better alone

But now that hes gone i have no one to talk to
He was always there for me when i needed someone to run to
He was my shelter, my rock
My one saving grace

When i needed a friend i knew he'd be there
No matter what i had done i know he'd still care
But its all different now
I have no where to turn
And its all my fault b/c i broke his heart
I lost my love, my friend, my saving grace