I cant help but love you :'(

My thoughts are often drifting,
To the good times that we shared,
And with this blade I wonder,
How long ago you cared.

I thought we’d be together,
Forever and a day,
But now it seems to me,
Our love has gone away.

I know we agreed it was over,
Though I cant help but think,
What If we had held on,
And found that missing link.

We were so good together,
You know this to be true,
Because last time we spoke,
You said ‘I still love you.’

But once again we have to forget,
About our feelings once more,
And now my heart is broken and weak,
Back to how it was before.

Nothing makes sense right now,
And all I feel is hurt and pain,
I take this razor to my wrist,
And gently sign your name.

I loved the way you smiled,
How your eyes shone so bright,
But no-one will ever know this,
As my tears only come at night.

I tried to move on from this,
Really, I tried to be strong,
But still I sit here and cry,
When I remember that you’ve gone.

You’re my first, my last, my everything,
And for this you made my life,
So much more meaningful,
Than that sharp blade on the knife.

In a few months I’ll be okay,
I’ll no longer cry these tears,
In a few months I’ll be okay,
And I’ll let go of all my fears.

Losing you was my biggest mistake,
But I cant turn back time,
I’ll patiently wait for that day again,
That your heart belongs to mine.