I'm so scared of you. I'm thinking what it would be like if you didn't
like me back, or if you got with someone else. I'm realizing how sad that would be. I'm realizing I care about you more than I thought I did.
I find myself thinking about you everyday. I find myself fighting over when/how to approach you. You blow me away every monday, I look forward to the time we spend together. I look forward to seeing you up front weekly. I look forward to looking in your eyes and seeing your smile. I look forward to holding you one day and calling you mine. I look forward to being in your presense.
I can't believe you're doing this to me. I'm becoming more scared of you the more time that passes. I don't know if we could ever work out. I don't know how you feel or if you could ever see me as more than how I wish you could see me.
I wish I looked better, I wish I was him, I wish you'd look forward to
seeing me the same way I look forward to seeing you.
The more I think of it, the more I probably know. We just are not going to work out. I've come so close to breaking the ice and letting you know. I've come so close to giving myself to you. But for whatever reason it may be, I'm yet to try anything. You're so confusing. One day you're hot one day you're cold. One day I feel we should be together but on another day you completely ignore me. Some days I feel we are a couple and are just a handclasp away from being official, then other days I feel you're pushing me aside and have no interest in going beyond friendship.
I just want to know. I don't even know what I want myself, but for sure I do wish we'd come together and even if we don't go beyond friendship I'd like to at least try and see what life would be like beside you.
