My Becoming

Who am I?
I don't know.
A happy person?
It doesn't show.
What do I need?
What do I want?
I constantly bleed.
My dreams I haunt.
What scares me?
Myself alone.
I want to be free,
Just break bone after bone
In my body,
Pain exerts.
How does it feel?
Oh boy, it hurts!!!!
I try to please you,
Then her, then him,
But now it's all through,
Screw you, screw them,
I walk in a daze,
Can't you see when you look?
I can't turn the page,
In this boring book.
No sympathy please,
Your tears I don't need.
Don't betray me,
My soul be let free.
Cry tears of joy,
I'll be back soon.
Finally, Oh boy,
My soul races to the moon.