Just go

I sit alone,
In my cold dark room.
Talk on the phone,
Awaiting my doom.
How can I express,
The way that I feel.
Inside they compress,
But its so unreal.
Isn't there someone,
Who'd dare to try?
To catch me when I run?
Hold me when I cry?
Isn't there a soul
Who would like to see?
Me as a whole?
Fully me as me?
Am I lacking worth?
Or a simple peace of mind?
Why does my heart hurt?
Why am I treated so unkind?
I want to know you,
I dare not to try.
I had not a clue,
You couldn't look me in the eye.
Please leave me now,
I beg you just to go.
But someday, somehow,
I pray that you will know.
That in my heart I care,
And in my mind I know.
The feelings and love are there,
I'd just rather not let them show.