I'm here in my bed
the blood is coming out
my leg is all red
the time is right now
I'll keep cutting
and hopefully I'll find a vein
I'll say "f.u.c.k. you suffering"
I'll wake up of this nightmare
I'm winning here you know?
I'm erasing the pain
leaving this f.u.c.k.i.n.g cold world
where loneliness is your only friend
HA! I laugh at you
and feel sorry CZ you rather stay
keep feelings the wounds of life
by living but being dead
I'm sick of listening your shit
i know I'm not insane
I've been always alone
now don't pretend to be my friend
i am not thinking right?
is that what you say?
you can't f.u.c.k.i.n.g judge me
you can't feel my pain
oh mistress psychiatrist
you think you know it all
then analyze this!
I'm writing my suicide note
while I'm cutting my wrists
sorry for the blood
sorry for existing
but it's not a problem anymore
I'm sorry mom
i have to leave this world
i couldn't take it
and i am far from strong
and you are the only one
that's allowed to cry
but don't do it too much
remember that the pain is gone
i can see the light
i just have to close my eyes
let myself go
let my nightmare die
LIVE?!
DIE?!
DILEMMA?!
LIE!
stop asking yourself
make a decision
and go to the happy place
