He Loves To Play Pretend

A Little Girl Once Fell In Love
After Broken Hearts Of The Past
She Knew It Was Oh So Very Soon
But She Was Determined To Make It Last

She Took That Mask And Threw It
Into The Beautiful Wide Blue See
She Told That Shining Prince One Night
I Now Want You To See The Real Me

She Showed Him The Fading White Scars
That Were Perfectly Placed On Her Wrist
She Told Him She Shouldn't Even Be Here Today
But Every Time She Cuts,God Made Her Miss

She Took The Painted Face Off
And Let Him See The Beauty Thats Inside
He Told Her She Was Utterly Perfect
And She Cuddled Into Him And Cried

They Sat Up One Night Talking
And She Told Him Off That Night
She Cried "He Held Me Down So Much It Hurt"
And I Couldn't Even Fight

She Told Him Of Her First Love
And How She Misses Him To This Day
But She Touched His Face And Said Your Different
You Make Me Happy In The Happiest Way

She Told Him off Her Dreams
Of Writing For This Broken World
She Told Him Believe Or Not
I was Once A Happy Little Girl

She Showed Him Words On Paper
That No Other Human Had Ever Seen
She Shared The Tears She Shed At Night
And Spoke To Him Of Those Horrid Dreams

She Told Him She Hears Certain Songs
And They Somehow Make Her cry
She Says She Open One Eye Each Morning
And Begs God To Let Her Die

She Thought He Was The One
To Rescue Her From That Tower Of Hell
But As The Months Wore On
The Story Didn't Leave Much More To Tell

She Doesn't Know When It Happened
But He Stopped Looking At Her That Way
She Knew Then He Couldn't Save Her
And Thats When She Vowed She Had To Walk Away

But She Found That She Couldn't
Even Though She Wasn't His True One
She Was Haunted By A Horrid Curse
Of Constantly Being On The Run

And Then It Soon Happened
She Knew He Didn't Love Her Anymore
Even Though He Swore He Did
She Knew It Wasn't Like Before

So She Started To Pull Away
And She Fished That Mask From The Sea
She Told Herself Maybe Things Will Return To Before
Before I Stupidly Let Him See The Real Me

So The Makeup Came Back On
To Hide Those Hidden Tears
She Stopped Speaking Of Her Feelings
And No Longer Said Her Fears

She Barely Slept When He Stayed Over
So She Wouldn't Scream In Her Dreams At Night
She Couldn't Bare For Him To Ask The Question
Which She Would Have To Lie And Say I'm Alright

The Pretty Little Girl He Met
The One Who Wasn't Pretty At All
Swore That She'd Never Let Him See
Tears That Would Continue To fall

And In The End She Realized
Thats What He Wanted Her To Be
He Wanted Her To Be A Happy Girl
Even If It Was Fake And He Could See

He Didn't Care For Her Feelings
But He Loved Her None The Less
But He Loved A Made Up Person
And She Knew He Failed The Test

Just Like Many Before Him
He Was Happy Loving A Fake
As Long As She Smiled And Laughed
A Life With Her He Was Willing To Make

And Even Now That Little Girl
Plays Pretend Each Day
Just To Keep The One She Loves
From Leaving Her To Rot Away

And She Doesn't Even Write
Because The Words Are Just No More
When She Started Pretending To Be Someone Else
The Words Were Left At Realities Door

And Some days She Pushes Herself
To Throw This Stupid Mask In The Sea
But Then It Suddenly Hits That Little Girl
She Doesn't Want To Again Be Just Like Me...........

The Emptiness Is Gone And The Truth Within My Writing Returns..I Just Wish This Didn't Have To Be SO...