So Complicated

I never expected this to happen
I never thought it would be this real
I never imagine i could be in this position
I never knew thats how you feel
All this pressure weighing on my shoulders
Two worlds became apart of me
Real time life reality
And cyber net make believe
I lived 2 lives and you were part of 1
The one where things were said through words
A place where I can escape my own problems
Live beyond high top standards
You were one of my closest friends
We would talk for hours until four
Talking about everything, normal or personal
We grew to like each other even more
Until the day you said you loved me
I just didn't feel the same
You always thought you did something wrong
When really you weren't to blame
I didn't grow that far to that feeling
Where I was willing to love you in return
I made you cry your self to sleep
Together for days our arms would burn
I would always say I was sorry
And things became awkward
But sooner or later things were back to normal
But yet still we suffered
Gone for days, haven't heard for awhile
We slowly drifted apart
All because of my parents
Cutting began to restart
We never got to meet
Never even got the chance
To see what would of happened
If it would of be some kind of romance
But that disappeared
I tried so hard to move on
You got upset, angry
I left...you were gone
You thought my life was going so well
That things were coming together
But nothing is what it seems to be
Nothing was any better
People telling me to dis attach myself from this world
To forget and let go of this
To pretend that i didn't like you
But really your something ill always miss
Things are just so messed up right now
Sitting here, I've waited
For things to go the way i wanted it
They always have to be so complicated
So my last words to you Sam
Is that I'm sorry that i couldn't give you what you needed
And for a moment i did love you once
But the pressure of my parents slowly succeeded
I'm forced to not talk to you
When i would give about just anything
Just to hug you and say
You were my life...You were once my everything
I made this poem for you
And i really hope you understand and believe me when i say
That things are really complicated right now
And i never planned for things to turn out this way
Just remember to smile and be happy
Think of me every now and then
If you ever need to talk or just to have someone to be there
I'm always here, Always my friend