Crush

How did you do this to me?
I told myself
“Not again.
I won’t fall in love.
Not yet.
I’m not ready.”
But you’ve done it
Made me fall again

I know it’s not love
Not yet at least
Love takes time
Especially for me
Takes time for me
To open up again
Let something back in
That hurt me so much
Last time

Maybe I’m wrong
Maybe it’s nothing
I can’t be sure
It feels like more
It’s stronger than before
But now things are different
They’re all so complicated
Why can’t they ever
Just be simple?

How did you do this?
I thought I was closed
I tried to shut it out
Ignore my emotions
But somehow
Somehow you’ve done this
But do you still care?
Oh, how I hope you do

Maybe I’m wrong
And it’s only a crush
What a perfect word
“Crush”
They always seem to end up
Crushing someone
Don’t let it be a crush