Can't bear to lie

Put a bullet in my head
Days grow tired
Wishing I was dead
Can't stand to lie
But I carry on
I hope that you’ll be
Sorry when I am gone
These things are my own
I save them for me
There are things that you
Do not need to see
These words are my own
Not put there for you
If you can’t see them
Maybe they aren’t true
When you read them
It hurts like a knife
So I run away
From all of this strife
Can’t bear lying
I want you to know
But if you do
I fear you will go
Embarrassment waits
If you find out
So I keep to myself
In my head I can shout
All my feelings
Turned upside down
Can’t bear to lie
So I slowly drown