Rediscovering Me

As I sit here,
in my room, at 6 a.m.
I watch the sun rise,
it’s light casting
pink and gold shadows on the mountains,
just outside my window.

As I sit here,
listening to the birds chirp,
I notice how they discover day.
That was when I had a revelation:

I am lost,
I am confused
I am scared.
I am alone.
I am nameless.
I am faceless.

All of these things,
I once used to know the answer to.
I realized then,
that to solve my faceless, scared existence
I needed to re-discover me.

I forgot who I once was.
I need self assurance.
I need to take a break
I need to slow down.
I need to time to think
I need to rediscover me.

It’s a journey, I am scared to take.
But I know that it is one that I must make.
I need to be truthful,
I need to let my true feelings out.
I need the confidence,
I once had, to come back.
I need to rediscover me.

I know that I will most likely,
lose and hurt people along the way.
But I am sick of having,
to always cope with other peoples shit.
I need to focus on me.
I need to rediscover myself.

Pathetic,
I know.
I don’t know who I am.
But I am sure that with time,
I will eventually find,
what I am seeking.
I know with time,
I will rediscover me.

*I had written this a couple of days ago but just got around to posting it...gah, i can't write. it depresses me :-/