One cut Too Deep

Razor Blade Kisses. My only friend.
Puts me out of my misery, here til the end.
The blood drips through slowly. Onto the ground.
Life flashes before me, the room spins around.
Oops. I think I've cut too deep.
Now all to do. Watch the blood seep.
It all goes blurry, then black.
I wake up in a daze. Where am I at!?
I thought it was over, forever gone?
D*mnit I'm back. Guess I was wrong.
I see my mom, sobbing like no other.
There's my aunt, my sister and brother.
Why do they care? They didn't before.
Why should I care? They don't anymore!
There's cards and flowers, cards say "get well soon!"
There's chocolate and animals, colored balloons.
Did people really send these to ME!?
Why would they do that? Can't they see?
I hate life so much. I no longer want to live.
I've done everything I can. Given all I have to give.
A long car ride home. Ridden in silence.
Is this how I am? Am I really this violent?
I remember the times, when I was happy, care-free!
God why couldn't I stay like that? JUST LET ME BE!
I've decided to give life a real shot.
I'll try to be happy, and give it all I've got.