Who i am

I don't know who i am anymore
every time i look in the mirror
it's like i am lookin at someone else
so much has changed in the past year

I lost a friend
a love one
a person who meant so much to me
I been blinded by pain
I can no longer see

I lost Walt
an so many more
that i wish that i could have back

some are gone forever
some just a few days
no longer that i can pretend that i am OK

substance abuse
staying out all night
not thinking of grades
seeing myself slowly fade

lost relationship that meant so much
my love long ago ran out
I start to dout myself
no matter what

do i love myself?
do i care for others?
am i still who i once was?
or am i another