I wonder how it feels sometimes
to have the pain locked away
I wish my life would painless
but it never goes away
I wish upon a starry night
to fall into an endless sleep
but everyday I wake up
with tears streaming down my cheek
but you don't care to look my way
and notice that I cry
you only look at the fact I'm gone now
why should you care
you haven't cared before
I've cut myself to many times
to feel the pain anymore
so I keep cutting
just to feel the pleasure
I'm sorry for the people i hurt
I'm just trying to release this pressure
I search for a blade
any blade in sight
maybe he'll be at my funeral
maybe he'll be alright
I try to resist the silent tears
that roll down my face
i can't stop them anymore
they just keep coming
if you didn't care
why didn't you tell me so
I sit there and wait for you
and then let the blood flow
no one understands
why I sit and wait for you
I just sit there and cry
you don't care anymore
and you led me on to believe
that you actually care
when you never cared
to begin with
why do I waste my time
on something so painful
