I never meant to!!!

You looked down
and saw my wrist
you took my arm
and tried to twist
you turned it round
and than i knew
what it was, that you saw

i tried to hide it
i really did
i wear a watch
one that maybe i forgot
i took it off before my shower
than went to work
forgot all about it

thinking what to say
tears welling in my eyes
um, i mutter
than nervously scream
suprise
didn't i tell you
i um, got a new cat
beautiful creatures
but love to scratch

as i looked into his eyes
he was now sitting down
trying not to cry
don't worry about it
i say
i did this on my own
i needed a realease

something, anything to let me forget
they're not as bad as they look
please don't hate me
look beyond my twisted mask
Shane, find me

I am who you thought i was
you'r like my second dad Shane
don't think I'm not who you thought I was
I'm still me
look on the inside
who cares about the outside
i feel i should explain

see, i needed a release,
to stop the inside pain
to focus it all
so i can be happy
every day life has just got me down
Shane please don't cry
it's just a bit of blood

i admit, i never wanted to cut that deep
so many emotions made me feel that i should
and it was only that i felt i had no other choice
it makes me feel so much better Shane, it does

now Shane, i didn't want to die
but I was lost
felt so alone
now i can see the light
light for hope and dreams and goals, Shane, it's light for me
so please don't cry for me!!*

(C) Lucy Green

thanks for reading my poem!