The letter

My dearest,
I don't really know how to start of this letter
I don't really know what I'm going to say either
But I'll try my best, I will, I promise,
Even If I don't really know how I'm going to say this...
First I'd like to say that you are amazing.
And without you really, would I still be living ?
I love you so much and that's what scares me
We're only fifteen Alex. Can't you just see ?
But you know Alex, you are so far away
That it hurts so much to not see you everyday
I did it for months, and I wish it could last
But I think it's better if we leave our story to the past.
I mean it Alex, and I'm so sorry
When I think of this, God I feel guilty.
I just wish I could hold you tight
And have you by my side every single night.
You made me happy, like you made me cry
And without you I know I would die.
The love isn't gone Alex, it's somewhere in my heart,
And I wish we truly did not fall apart...
For one last time Alex, I'm sorry.
I just really want you to be happy !
I'll end this here, and please remember,
That I love you Alex, always and forever.